Eating Disorders and Social Media

Logging on to a socail media site with an eating disorder is like being held captive in a cage and watching all of the free people run around and play. Its our own form of torture. We can pretend we're normal and at the same time hate everyone that actually is. I on the other hand actually deleted my social media account yesterday. It took some time and I had been wanting to get rid of it for a while now, but I was always afraid. Then finally something happened when I logged on and devistated me, depressed me for days. My ex best friend is PREGNANT.

         It was literrally the first thing I saw when I logged in; and I spent the rest of the day wondering how this could happen for her and not for me. For some unknown reason I am a broken woman and cannot concieve a child. So seeing people that can, especially people close to me really hits me hard. And if anyone has been on facebook lately they know that everyone is getting pregnant right now and Im not too sure why. But I will say this, if you are like me GET THE FUCK OFF OF FACEBOOK. Its only going to ruin your life and bring you down. Between the pictures of food that are constantly popping up and everyone having babies, you cant catch a break. Its like our own personal online hell.

         Why torture yourself? Do you keep it to feel normal? Well there are other sites out there that you can go to that are a lot better than facebook. For example I found a site, a social media site, that I get on way more than I ever got on facebook. Its called myproana.com. Dont let the name fool you, no one there is actually "pro ana."  From what I have found on my time there is a bunch of really nice and like minded people. There is lots of love and support there and its basically one big family. I have gotten help with many problems there. I have even met some of the girls in person! They helped me stop purging. They always let me know im not alone. It really is just the best place to be. And theres no worry of food ever coming up or pictures of pregnant friends. Its  just, awesome.

           For the record, no I do not run the site, I am not an admin on the site, I dont pay for anything on the site. I just really believe in what they are doing to help. And if they ever went away I would be devistated. 

Until next time my Flowers!
<3Bloom