Eating disorders and Addiction

        We know that eating disorders are about control. But what about the things that we cant control; things like addictions? Ive noticed recently that I have a problem with addiction. Now i know you're going to ask, how does this connect to your ED? It connects because we have to find that one thing that is going to replace the food in our lives. Most people would be amazed by what we can get ourselves addicted to.

        Ive seen people develop smoking addictions, shopping addictions, hell even porn addictions. I just like any other person suffering with an ED have my share of addictions.

My addictions and the reasons behind them:

1. Laxatives, this one got really bad, to the point where i was putting liquid lax into my cereal. I like them because they make me empty and I hate throwing up.

2. The "Just dance" games, first of all they are so much fun, second off all its a workout and I can play for hours and no one questions me.

3. Porn, yes that one was me. It really passes the time. Sometimes its not even for sexual pleasure or anything it just kills time.

A lot of times I think that there's a deeper reason to why we get addicted to things so easily. I feel like it has something to do with our sense of control; because we get to control what goes in to our bodies and how much of it. Or what we do and how long we do it. Most peoples addictions depend on where their eating disorder stemmed from. For example drug and alcohol addictions could stem from a misguided past, abuse or depression. My eating disorder stemmed from bad childhood memories, which is why I feel I'm so child like today and feel the need to pass my time playing endless dance games.
So I wanna know, what are your addictions? Why do you do them? and Where did they come from? I recently asked a group of people with eating disorders what some of their addictions are and I got some pretty amazing responses.

"Porn,sex,alcohol, and coffee"

"cutting, alcohol, drugs, coffee..."

"Coffee and cigarettes "

"Cutting, porn (Never cutting porn though Yes this is a thing), Soda"

        Ive noticed a lot of people with an ED have many of the same addictions. Is there something in our brains that triggers the addiction when we go without food? Do different disorders have different addictions?? I haven't found too much research on the subject but its definitely something id like to continue at a later date. If you know the reasons feel free to share!!

Until next time my Flowers!
<3Bloom