Most people seem to think that after you get the okay from the doctor that you are officially cured of your illness. In most cases that's true; but when it comes to ED it couldn't be more far from it. I got the okay 3 years ago when I was released from the hospital for "good behavior" Its been 4 months since I've started restricting again and I've lost 30 pounds.
Looking in the mirror today I actually noticed the change. My cheeks are more defined and I can see my collar bone again. No one really notices yet. There's my mother in law who is always trying to force me to eat but, shes always been that way. Everyone else just thinks I've dropped a few pounds. Its okay for now. Ha I say that like there is nothing wrong with what I'm doing. I've been a lot harder on myself this time around than I ever was the first time. Not only have I been restricting but the very little bit I do eat gets purged out,
This isn't fun for me. I've never been sure why relapse is so common with an ED you'd think we wanna stay healthy. I guess not. Even I don't know the answer to that question. I did however take the time to ask around to see if I can find anyone else that has relapsed and is going through the same things that I'm going through right now. Sadly as much as I hate to see it there are plenty of others out there that are dealing with this too.
If this applies to you, just know that there are people out there who can help you if you are looking for help. If you just need someone to talk to you can always email me! I am here for support and I do not judge anyone on their imperfections. I know how hard it is to go through this and if I can make anyone's life easier that's exactly what id like to do! So here it is for the world to see! My personal email address is bloomthin@yahoo.com. I look forward to hearing from you guys!!
Until next time my Flowers!
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